How having a blog is alot like living in foster care.

Today I was laying around on the floor staring at the ceiling.  I am extremely depressed and had no energy to do anything.  Cartoons were not even entertaining….So I turned my cheap-ass TV off and watched the ceiling.  If you recall, I live where the ceiling is painted in such a way that it looks like someone shot white paint pellets onto it and they splashed across the ceiling in various different directions.  It sounds goofy, but it is actually quite artistic and I like it.  I can stare at it for hours.

So today I thought about my blog…..and how in many ways it resembles life in foster care.

1.  People come and go…. and never tell you why.

Did I write something offensive, did my blog get boring, were they tired of my ranting, did they take everything they needed, did they give up believing that betterment was possible, did they just not care anymore… As the writer of the blog, I have seen lots of people come and go…people who make comments change over time, with very few remaining for along time.

Ironically, what I realized is that this bothers me.  There is something comforting in seeing the familiar “names” of commenters on my blog.  Something encouraging, something supportative, something….well, nice.  But then, it is also bothersome when I realize people have “disappeared” …. and i NEVER know why.

Do you see how this mimics relationships in foster care?  People came into my life, with supportive intent, encouragement at times, and than for reasons that I NEVER knew….disappeared when I was moved to another placement.  All comfort of familiarity was shot to hell everytime I was “bounced”….

…people gone and I never new why.

Was it me? — Was it them?

How sad.

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2.  People find “new, more interesting” blogs to follow….and the old ones, no-one wants to read.

People are always searching for “new blogs” — hot, off-the-press topics that have just started.  Many times people leave an older blog to follow the new ones– new writers who offer a new perspective.  Young blogs are hot, old blogs are not.