HW#1: what makes me scared

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i am scared…

• that my now free, biological father will find me and hurt me

• that my biological mother NEVER thought about me at all

• that all the slime inside me will NEVER get out

• that i am so hideous and ugly and disgusting that people shun me

• that i will NEVER be safe

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i am scared…

• of the dark

• of the night….. and the day

• of being raped… again

• of being beaten up badly… again

• of being touched

• of being near death by someone else’s hand… again
  

• of being tied to beds, locked in closets, basements, or garages… again

• of being given to others for their use… again

• of people… and what they want from me

• of being so hungry because there is no food that it hurts ALL over…again

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i am scared…

• that i won’t be able to pay for the needs of my pets
  

• that  my pets will die

• that i will NEVER find a friend to hang out with

• that i will be homeless… again

• that i will NEVER find anyone who loves me

• that i am beyond hope

• that no-one will ever care about me

• that i really am as bad as i believe

• that i will always be stupid

• that Dr. Val will dump me, like everyone else

• that when people yell and raise their voices, bad things will happen

• that the scars on my body will NEVER fade..and even if you can’t see them, i can
• that i will ALWAYS be alone

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i am scared…

…of so many things

…how can the world ever feel safe?