puffy cheetos and changes

July 10, 2018 at 10:44 pm 30 comments


i still love puffy cheetos.  i ate 2 bags of them today.  one for me and one for Dr.Val, although she doesnt eat crap.  i probably should have eaten an avocado or a grapefruit or something healthy, but puffy cheetos seemed better to me… dont you think so?

i worked all day.  yeah, that’s right. so i couldnt cry the whole day…or think the whole day about leaving Dr. Val… plus Dr. Val is on vacation, so i cant talk to her anyway.  i suppose if i sent her a text, she would respond, but heck, she is on vacation.

since you last read this blog, so many things have changed. man.  where do i start?

well ostock-photo-21834368-teddy-bear-and-box-full-of-toysbviously i am older, which is supposed to mean i am more mature.  but inside i still feel like a little kid. my heart does at least.  “parts” of me are still kids and i have the dam toys to prove it.  remember the parts?  well, they are better, but not totally gone… sigh.




i moved.  about 6 hours away from Dr. Val.    that sucks.

i still have crappy hair

i actually got a cell phone. KC had to show me how to use it and i still suck at it, but now i am like everyone else in the world for owning that one thing.

you all remember Moonlight and Shadow and Harbor, well as you know i lost them and it dam near killed me.  Dr. Val sat with me everyday after I lost Harbor and Moonlight. If it wasnt for her… … … …

….but anyway, it was so hard not having animals around me that i went down to a great rescue center in my city and got Bean and Blaze.

Bean looks like this



And Blaze looks like this


LOL.  I went to get ONE and they gave me TWO!  They told me they had to go together because Blaze was a surrogate mom for Bean.  Little Bean was found really small and alone, so they put her with Blaze and Blaze took care of her. The rescue people bottle fed Bean, but Blaze did the rest… So they had to come together… no choice.

They were in the cage for so long that when they got free they were CRAZY.  oh my.             i DANCING BLACK CATdidnt think my apartment would handle it.  Bean was especially crazy because she was little. Bean is still crazy and she talks alot. Meow, meow, meow, meow.  I can have a real conversation with her.  I talk and she talks back.  LOL. She knocks things off the counter and then looks around like “what just happened” — I am like “Bean, not again!”

Blaze has calmed down alot.  She loves food more than me. She is an orange tabby and the rescue lady told me that most orange tabbys are male, so Blaze is really special….BUT she is in charge.. she walks around with a HUGE attitude….and who is she in charge of?

Bean, me and….

…so about 6 months after I got Bean and Blaze, I went looking at the rescue center again.  Yup.  I asked about a dog. Like a week later, the rescue lady called me up and said “LT, we have a dog for you!.”

Say hi to Tide… she looks like this


Tide was like 1 and very scared. She was even more scared than i am. She barely knew how to walk.  She sat on the chair and just tried to hide. She winced when i went to pet her.  But i just gave her caring and consistency and now she loves to walk and greets people to be petted.  She wants to be petted all the time now.  She even puts her paw up when she wants more…  She loves Dr. Val.

By the way, they all had different names when i adopted them… they didnt know their names anyway, but now they do…

… we all grew.

im sleepy now.  goodnight. peace.



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leaving then versus leaving now. this is related to foster care, how? — Dr Val? birth record?… who gives a crap? my life story is in foster care records that are stuck in a trap

30 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Alice  |  February 22, 2019 at 3:44 pm

    RIP Moonlight.

    You are lucky you get to have pets at your place, in my country about 99% of landlords ban them.

  • 2. johnjstanton  |  July 15, 2018 at 1:44 pm

    You are creative, have a good heart, and excellent taste in snacks. Fixing crappy hair just requires finding a good hair dresser.

    Sounds like you are developing compassion, loving-kindness, and equanimity. Nice work.

    Ask Dr. Val what her favorite snack is, you can tell her one of your readers in curious.


  • 3. Fiona  |  July 12, 2018 at 10:14 pm

    This post made me smile. Rescued pets are the best.
    Glad you are writing again

  • 4. Foster Mom in Training  |  July 12, 2018 at 10:09 pm

    It’s good to hear from you. I’m glad you adopted pets who really needed you. We try to do the same. It’s so rewarding to see them grow and flourish. I’m glad you are well, LT. I was worried.

  • 5. Anonymous  |  July 12, 2018 at 7:49 pm

    LT, it is good to hear from you again. Your fur-babies are adorable:)

  • 6. jamz9999  |  July 12, 2018 at 12:45 pm

    Glad to hear about your new furry friends. Glad you are mostly okay. I wish you well in your new job.

  • 7. Tara dSL  |  July 12, 2018 at 1:32 am

    I love this post!!! Your pets are adorable! So happy that you have chosen to give these three precious creatures a great life with you.

  • 8. Regina  |  July 11, 2018 at 11:35 pm

    Reading this made me smile. I’m happy you’re getting better. And the way you described your pets made me smile, too. I love how they each have their own special personality.

  • 9. InstantMama  |  July 11, 2018 at 7:56 pm

    You’re back! I was beyond happy to see your post a couple days ago. And look at your little family! What sweeties. You’re one of the best pet-mama’s out there. And Tide sounds like you were just what she needed (and maybe she was just what you needed to). You guys are all perfect for each other. My five forever kids are doing well. We adopted a dog as well. She’s part bulldog, part lab. She’s the best and they love her. Stubborn as can be though. I do what to tell you that I think it is amazing that you were brave enough to leave Dr. Val. I know you will do OK, even though it hurts more than anything right now. She knew you were ready, and obviously you did too. I wish we never had to leave the people we love as well. (We moved across the country away from our first kids who were back with their mom – even though we knew the move was the right thing it still hurts more than anything to not be able to jump into the car and go visit them at least once or twice a year.) I’m not really blogging anymore but I’m still subscribed and you totally made my day when you started blogging again. I’m an avid reader even if I don’t comment much, and you know you have a whole online community here who is rooting for you and can’t wait to see what great things (or boring things done right – that is awesome too!) you accomplish. Blessings,

  • 10. sciencedino  |  July 11, 2018 at 1:42 pm

    I thought of you when my 18 yo foster daughter was super disappointed that we only had regular cheetos. We have puffy cheetos for her now!

  • 11. tomorrowsmemories  |  July 11, 2018 at 1:21 pm

    This post has me smiling from ear to ear. I am so proud of you for allowing yourself to love again, after so much loss. Those fur babies are pretty thankful too…and I know you must be too. Animals are such a blessings! YAY for a cell phone!!!

  • 12. Anonymous  |  July 11, 2018 at 11:07 am

    Glad to hear from you, LT. I know it’s hard for you to recognize your progress, but from this side, when we haven’t heard from you for so long, I can really tell that you have grown and matured…not just “gotten older”. It comes out in your writing. I can see it in how you survived loss and grieved and now are putting your heart back out there with new furry family, and making a move 6 hours from Dr. Val. Coping while she’s on vacation and being sensitive to her privacy. Getting a new job. I’m so impressed! Keep up the good work! Were you able to get back on a bicycle again?

    Don’t be too hard on yourself for not “feeling” your age. I turned 50 this year and I always thought 50 year old people were smarter or wiser or more together or more self-confident, and I feel like a poser. An imposter. But I think its kinda normal and I don’t expect to ever feel completely “together”. Anyway…good to hear from you. Peace.

  • 13. Jennifer Thut  |  July 11, 2018 at 10:30 am

    Glad you are back online!

  • 14. Jenny  |  July 11, 2018 at 10:15 am

    I think we all still feel like kids at heart – I always joke how crazy it is that I feel 24 and yet have kids that are in their teens! As Jimmy Buffett says, “I’m growing older but not up!”

    You have such a beautiful family! The unconditional love that we give to and receive from our pets is one of the best things in the world. ❤

  • 15. AnnMarie Johnson  |  July 11, 2018 at 9:02 am

    So glad to get updates!

  • 16. Karen  |  July 11, 2018 at 9:02 am

    I am so happy to see posting again. As a foster parent of 8 years and 18 kids, I have learned so much from you!

  • 17. Jess  |  July 11, 2018 at 8:58 am

    Wow LT. I am so glad that you got some new furry friends in your life! They really make a difference. Glad to see you writing.

  • 18. Shoshana  |  July 11, 2018 at 8:42 am

    Hi LT,
    Like many others, I also used to check in periodically to see what you were up to. So glad to see you are writing again.
    Your new furry friends look like fun and energy and you are doing for Tide what Dr. Val did for you.

    Be well, LT. You have come far and are going farther.

  • 19. Danielle  |  July 11, 2018 at 8:20 am

    I am so glad your back writing I really missed all your beautiful writings and So glad your doing well. Also congratulations on your new family members.

  • 20. maez4  |  July 11, 2018 at 7:46 am

    Hearing you talk about your furry family made my heart smile. I love animals too. We have six indoor rescue cats (I know that’s a bit crazy) and two indoor rescue dogs. One was going to be an emotional support dog for my 19 yr old daughter but she didn’t train her. We also have three bunnies ( one named Bean) and a bunch of reptiles. Those have to stay in my daughter’s room! Take care-love reading your posts!

  • 21. Bethany  |  July 11, 2018 at 6:44 am

    Glad to see you are still eating well. 🙂

  • 22. Sandy  |  July 11, 2018 at 6:20 am

    This is great news! I too love the names. When you get down on yourself, think about how you have helped these 3. It sounds like you all have come a long way!

  • 23. Lee  |  July 11, 2018 at 6:17 am

    Oh I love the pics of your fur family. They are all so cute and lucky to be yours

  • 24. Rita  |  July 11, 2018 at 6:09 am

    Sweet. ❤

  • 25. Tina Bean  |  July 11, 2018 at 2:44 am

    I’m so thrilled to hear how things have been going for you. It has been a long time, but we did not forget you out here in the blogosphere!! Your sweet kitties and doggo are so adorable!! I love their names too.

  • 26. wendy smith  |  July 11, 2018 at 1:49 am

    I feel your energy and joy through your words! How wonderful to have 3 new pets. You will bring each other so much joy. Thanks for sharing 😊

  • 27. Jess  |  July 11, 2018 at 1:46 am

    You are awesome. My heart does flips when I hear about rescued animals. I’ve always loved your heart through your posts but this is just the best. Cats are the best! And so are fluffy dogs. So happy for you to have some love after losing your doc.

  • 28. Anonymous  |  July 11, 2018 at 12:26 am

    So glad you guys all have each other! Much Love to you!!

  • 29. pink  |  July 10, 2018 at 11:30 pm

    Hey LT
    Love the animals. They’re all beautiful, and you gave them a fresh start & such great names.
    Loved the cell phone & cheetos!! Hope your new job is something you enjoy.
    Really glad you”re still in touch with KC. Glad you’re caring for your kid parts too.
    Take lots of care of you
    You’re so brave LT, i’m so in awe of you

  • 30. Sarah  |  July 10, 2018 at 11:25 pm

    Ah, LT. They are adorable. Bean is such a cute name. You have a good heart for rescuing them. Pets really bring joy to our lives, don’t they?


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